derno

same? different?
changing? remaining the same?
what? where? why? how?

ans: derno.

世界最悲哀的事莫過於等待,而是不知明的猜測.

i need answer.

and please treasure what you have, and do not forsake like whenever you want.
that's bad.:(. you know i hate this feeling.

world.

there's this girl in this realistic world.

everyday she hopes that people can understand what she is thinking.
everyday she hopes that someone can share her thoughts.
she has been thinking that maybe one day she can find her soulmate.

she's disappointed because she thinks that she can never find one due to her paranoid personality.
she thought that she could be simple back in those days.
eventually she knows that it is impossible at the moment.

sometimes, she thinks she's independent enough.
However, when something is going on, she loses her way.
maybe she needs a GPS.
or maybe she just needs a map.
what does she need? no one knows, only she knows.

what's precious to her? no one knows, including herself.
she has been wandering around to find her dream (or goal if you prefer).
she has been thinking to pursue her dream but she has no idea what kind of dream it is.

maybe she needs time and space for her to think what she should do in the next phase of her life.
she's not young anymore.
this is her main concern.
she cannot afford to slack and party around because she has not much time left to think of her future.

yeah, you are right. she needs some getaways, but she can't due to some personal reasons.

do you have any advices for her?


i have this for her -

'Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

— 2 Corinthians 1:3-4'

sudden.

it is 8:38 am.
i suppose to be inside library at the moment.
due to unforeseen circumstances, my plan is postponed to 10 am.

these few weeks are quite contented.
and i have learned a lot of new things.


1st. a girl dumped a guy and the guy tried to resolve but got a shit.
2nd. i am very shocked that in fact a family can be NOT that close.
3rd. sometimes God really gives you a hint.
4th. it is a tiring job talking to someone whom she can't get your point all the time.
5th. i start to listen mandarin songs again. *emo*. HAH.
6th. i discover karma keeps coming back. ugh.

if it's not yours, it's not yours.
don't do something holding it back.
it is not worthy.
believe me.
do you want a rubbish or a treasure?
i would choose treasure if you ask me.

it's useless to pick up a rubbish now as you need to dump it anytime later.
it's heaps better to get a treasure and treasure it forever ever or longer than rubbish of course.

lesson to be learned:
don't invest your time on something that you don't even know whether you can make it or not.

i know i might sound silly or childish.
i know i am young like 20 years old.
i haven't been through a lot but i have heard more than enough.
learning from people's past is awesome.


quote from rascal flatts' song, quote from singaporetaxidriver's story,
"life is a highway".

have a nice day!

21 days in exact.

ohmygod. i should really discover itunes united kingdom sooner.
i am still somehow attracted to indie/alternative tho.

i just watched nick&norah's infinite playlist.
it is damn awesome.
it's definitely my type of movie.
with no doubt, you should listen to the soundtracks too.

ugh, i want to pick up my reading habit again.
reading The God of Small Things at the moment.
but i am so eager to buy Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol.
but fml, i have so many books that i haven't really finished reading yet.

next week, i should start doing my revision and preparing for my last presentation.

i don't know why. there's no anticipation of going home this time.
i just want to go back and see my family members and that's it.
if my family members are able to come to perth, i cbb to go back tho.

tomorrow's second day of week break.
not going to perth royal show. waste of money. pfft.
want to go for movies, but no one wants to watch the movies that i wanted to watch.

i just want to bum at home, can i?
after few weeks of happening life, i think i should stop by then.
time to cool down and think of a new way to get a life.

thanks to my sickness.
i have stayed at home most of the time due to the sickness.
i have been thinking a lot too.
no. i am not emo.
i am now starting to think about my future.
job,mortgage,places and people etc etc etc.

but now i know what i need to do is concentrating in my studies.
i shouldn't think so much since it's not that necessary at the moment.
in fact, i really dont get the point of continuing to live the way i live with my life at the moment.
is that a hint that i should be starting to get settling down?
i don't know.
cbf atm.

ah. okay. i am starting to get a little bit emo.
okay. i will stop by then.
off to do some readings. :).

have a nice day people.

dilemma

最近歷史又再重復了.
如果你問說我該怎麽解決,
我也不曉得.

我想每個人都會有掙扎的經驗.
你最想要的卻你最不可能得到的.
期望越高，失望也越高.

有時低落一點也不錯,
至少你有把很多煩惱都拿出來回想一下.
坦然得面對未嘗不是件好事呢?
放棄你不該堅持的未嘗不是件好事?
爲何要緊緊地握住而期待著它變成你所要的?
讓它順其自然的發生不是很好嗎?
所謂'自然就是美'. 哈.

我好想旅行啊,
去到我日盼夜盼的峇里島.
或者夏威夷也不錯.
總之就是度假!

還有四天,
我又要回到現實了.
好吧,
大家加油,
我們美好的時機很快就會出現了!